Next week

I'll be going on a short vacation with B. The idea is very romantic... my heart is with him but somehow when i'm not with him my mind keeps on wandering. To.. guess who?
I miss him badly. But honestly given a chance right now to patch things up, i'm not sure what i'll choose. But i know that definitely if i could rewind time and change things, i definitely would.
There is a difference.

Can't wait for next week though. I might as well be happy right?

Better

Still hurting, but healing.
Been a busy week so far, glad that tomorrow is Friday. However weekends seem empty to me nowadays.
Dissatisfied with family life.. and as for friends, somehow i don't seem very enthusiastic but i have decided to make an effort.
I realise i no longer have the energy to party hard - all of it is going to my work which is not even fulfilling. I will probably quit soon and go back to studying however i am rather used to having a salary which i can spend on myself as compared to allowance, not that my salary is big but it's better than allowance actually. When i go back to studying i might just feel restricted.
Neither do i want to waste my youth.
What should i do?